My Fears

A month or so ago I was taking my daily walk [which I have done for many years] on a beautiful, sunny day. The walks were clear; so I started on my pace. I looked down and pulled my MP3 player out of my pocket to change the song and suddenly out of nowhere I was laying on the sidewalk. My first thought was ???? I could not figure out how it happened. It was as though someone had grabbed my angle watching me hit with a giant thud.

I thought to myself, "O.K. no broken bones, I guess I'll finish." By the time I got home my arm was hurting alot. So I took some Ibuprofen. Then after a few days my stomach began to hurt. Now I needed to make a decision, "Should I work on the pain in my stomach or my arm." I chose my stomach. It has taken all this time and finally I think I am about healed. I have finally given in to the fact that I have entered "Old Age."

My problem is I am now frightened to walk even on dry ground. Once it started snowing, my fear turned to panic each time I opened the door and looked out.


Christmas has come and gone. The tree and other decorations are all put away. Usually this time of year I pull out all of my many boxes of snowmen decorations and go "hog wild" as they say with the snowmen.

This year I said, "No way." I cannot encourage more snow. I have a hard enough time without it!" The only decor of snow remaining is the wreath on my front door. It haunts me each time I put on my Yak Tracks, coat and gloves and open my front door to go walking [out of habit I think]. Then I turn around without regret and am faced with an invitation of more snow.



Please if anyone can help me . . . please do. Tell me if my fear of walking compounded now with the snow will ever go away.